House of Mirrors

 House of Mirrors We sit by windowswaiting for the coffee to make itself out of waterwishing the windows weren’t made of glassyou and I we are not see throughlike these windows and waters we watch the world with. I am thirstywhen I sit with you the water tastes betterwe are made of waterI am soaking but I don’t know how to swimin my own blood. I want to slap you, make you look in the mirrormake you stop smilingI want you to dance with melike you really mean itas if these steps you take are a songyou couldn’t finish singingbecause you forgot the words. We always dance in front of the mirrorpausing only to drink our watersinging only the songslike waterfalls, they fall off my tongue. I feel like I’m in dirty watermaking waves when there could havebeen calm stillnessinstead I dream about flamingoswhile you bring me flowersthese birds of paradise are your favorite… This is what I see when I look out my windowI see rented space, who are we renting the earth fromGod? Mother Nature?I see cars that are standing stillIn the rain it looks like my shadowis someone else’s shadowand she’s dancing instead of me.  This is the house of mirrorswhere I look fat and I seemugly, actually ugly when my face is distortedhow many me's are therein these dusty mirrorswhere I can barely my own, your own, face. They say the best thing when you are thirsty is waterthey say everything else is fake quenchingstop your Gatorade, stop you Cokes,drink your dirty water schoolgirldrink it till it hurts. They say it's fun housebut I'm not having any funif I wanted to kill myself don't make it so easyhere I will give you my gun. Politicians and diplomats discuss the poisonthey swear you should drinkthey don’t even see, that water is a mirror, a windowwhatever is in there is in me. nina