Window

you can see me through your car windowif you really look. have you ever really looked atwhere your window is? who are you in the darkwhen we are all asleep? are you sure you aresitting where you are, it looks as if you are somewhereelse? it looks like you are facing life. the circlesunder your eyes give away your sleepless nights.that small scar beneath your lip, tells a story about yourdays. how long are these moments, silences between seconds?you will be here, even if I'm not, you will always be wherethe pain ends and the light starts. the light makes me sin.it's only in the darkness that I can be me. I make mistakes whenyou are watching me, with your suspenders and red sox.you are a funny one, aren't you? those hats you used to wearthey are all sitting in a box, beneath the bed where youused to lie. the pedometer is misreading my steps. I want toyell at it but it doesn't speak english as far as I know. I know nothingabout your face, the one you used to put on for me.you had the music in you. you were the sound of life. and I could seethe sea, through your eyes. I wish I had a fast car, so we could getout of here. you drive, I'll watch. I watch my life go by as if decisionswere made by me. I didn't choose this. I wanted a bigger life. one withdimensions. keep on driving. I'll watch myself watch you in the rearview mirror.nina