Damn
Damn if I didn’t watch you and wonder why you don’t struggle to live the way I do.
Damn if I didn’t start singing every time you lied to me.
Damn if I never understood why you don't speak in complete sentences.
Damn if we didn’t laugh at the wind because it blew near us.
Damn if it never made sense that I can’t own music, that no owns time and you don’t own me.
Damn if I don’t know anything real about myself except that I breathe and I still don’t know why.
Damn if I don’t feel comfortable being and never knowing what to say.
Damn if we were not wild, like kids running around in woods with nowhere to go.
Damn if there is nothing to do except exist, no requirements in life except to be someone.
Damn if you didn’t know me because I never knew how to be real when it came time to.
Damn if my fantasy was better than your face.
Damn, Damn, Damn, if I could see your colors and wanted you to draw me.
nina